“Sometimes letting things go away is an act of far greater power than defending or hanging on. If they are not worthy enough to stay, you must let them go and move on with your life. Life is too precious to cry over a person who doesn’t even care to look back at you.” Our narrator Manish Raj Srivastav had a similar experience in life. He had a point in his life where the love of his life turned him down in the worst way. Rather than hanging onto the relationship, he chose to break it off. It was difficult for him to let her go, but with time he learned to let go.
Hatke Story has brought his story, so you can also learn the art of letting go. Always remember one thing “Give but don’t allow yourself to be used. Love, but don’t allow your heart to be abused. Trust but don’t be naive. Listen, but don’t lose your voice. Save until it doesn’t take your life. Hold until it is worthy enough to be there.” So let us read his story to see a practical example of this quote.
Manish Raj Srivastav – My life story
I’m Manish Raj Srivastav from Delhi. My family lived in Bihar, but they moved to Delhi 20 years back. I finished my schooling in Delhi. Then I shifted to Chennai in 2012 as I got admission to an engineering college. Currently, I’m working with Zeta.
My story with Priyanka (changed name) started from school when I was in 8th standard. She was a new kid in my class and had a different accent as she migrated from Jharkhand. ‘Hum’ was always there in each sentence. She’d never use I or Main, so everyone in the school found it funny. They teased her for having a different accent.
One day, I approached her to tell her that people were making fun of her accent. She should change it as it is not a big deal to use Main at the place of Hum. It was a small conversation we had with each other. From that point, these small conversations became our routine.
In November, when our half-yearly exams were close, she asked me to help her. I was great with Mathematics but below average in English, and she was great in English. She studied in a convent school, so her English was on the point. We decided to teach each other.
After a few days, she called my mother’s phone, and I didn’t know she had her phone number. It was surprising to me. She suggested that we should study together, and that’s how it all began.
I used to visit her house for group study, and within a month, we fell for each other. Initially, I wasn’t sure of her feelings, so I didn’t reveal them. Then we came more close, became best friends, started speaking to each other daily.
In December, we were preparing for a school program. We had gone to school on Sunday, and only 13-14 kids were around us. While returning to our homes, I confessed that I liked her, and she said I like you too but as a friend. I didn’t get it because friend zones were not common in our time.
We had mutual friends, so through them, I discovered that she had feelings for me, but she couldn’t open up. They encouraged me to make the first move. I decided that I would call her. I said, ‘I love you on the call, and I immediately severed the connection as I didn’t dare to listen to her reply.
Later, she acknowledged my feelings and accepted the proposal. We began dating each other and stayed together for a few months. It was great, but things were messed up for me.
I was good with my studies, so my family expected a lot from me. I had pressure on my shoulder to perform well, and the relationship was eating my time as well as energy. So I discussed my worries with her. I told her that I wouldn’t be able to speak to her for a while. We should focus on our studies, and once we are done with our board exams, we can continue. She agreed to limit our conversations. I secured good grades in my exams. Although we didn’t talk a lot, we were happy with each other.
Later, I came to know that she was changing school. Even my parents were telling me to join some other school. We both switched to different schools, and our relationship dried up, and only customary Hi and Hello on festivals and birthdays stayed alive.
After a while, my friends revealed that she was dating someone else. It was a heartbreaking thing for me as I had thought we still had some connection left.
Nevertheless, I didn’t wish to disturb her, so I never turned back to confront her.
Even if I wasn’t in touch with her, but she was always in my mind. I wanted to give some time to my career, so I thought to give it a break and try after some time. Within a year, she broke up with that guy and had some other relationships as well. I never reacted in Class 12th, and I wanted to keep my concentration on my studies.
Post my board exams. I got a friend request from a girl I didn’t know. I didn’t accept it, but I replied to her texts. We spoke for a couple of days, and she told me that I was the same girl you dated before. I have taken admission in a college of Jharkhand near my hometown. I tried to reach you for so long, but I didn’t have your number, so I pinged you on Facebook.
My reaction was neutral as I had stopped thinking about her. We talked for a couple of weeks. When I was in my home, we chatted a lot like 24 long hours. In August, I shifted to Chennai. We chatted for three months.
One day, she called me around 11 pm and revealed that she was drunk. She seemed disturbed, so I was consoling her. Then Priyanka said, “Leaving you was the biggest mistake of my life. I dated other boys to get you out of my mind, but nobody ever understood me as you did.”
My heart melted, and I said, “Priyanka, I do understand you. Tell me, what can I do to make you feel better? How will you stop crying?” I asked. In return, she asked me to come back to her. I tried avoiding it by saying, “Look, it will be a long-distance relationship. I don’t think so that it will work for both of us. It would be better if we stayed as friends”. However, she didn’t buy it and attempted to convince me with her words.
She said, “Manish, if you don’t say yes to me, then I’ll jump.” Her words scared me. She was drunk, so I didn’t want to take any risk. I granted her wish, and that’s how we got back to each other. Trust me; I wouldn’t have if I knew what was going to happen to me next.
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